Sarah

Mom to Avery, Lost at 4 weeks in August 2008

Lex, Lost at 8-9 weeks on January 25th, 2009

and Ryan, Lost at 5 weeks on November 16th, 2009

Louisville, Kentucky

I got married Sept 10th, 2005 to a wonderful man named Matt.  Three months later after being off birth control for only 3 weeks we found out we were pregnant. I had a wonderful pregnancy..loved everything about it actually. Didn't have any problems what-so-ever. On Aug. 27th, 2006 we were blessed with my wonderful son Noah. Life was great. When Noah was 1 1/2 we decided that we wanted to add to our happy family. So we started trying.

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Morgan

Mother to Ella, lost to miscarriage January 3rd, 2009

and Angel Baby #2, lost to miscarriage April, 2009

Olathe, Kansas

Ever since I was a little girl I have wanted to have children.  I think that is what most little girls want.  That is why we love dolls so much.  So it is no surprise that shortly after I got married, I started thinking more seriously about starting a family.  This is the story of my journey to becoming a mother.  It is a deeply painful and personal story.  I have chosen to share it for two reasons.  One is because it brings meaning to my struggle.  My pain will not have been in vain and it keeps the memory of those loved and lost alive.  The second reason, of equal importance, is so I might offer help and hope to other women experiencing the same loss.  Here is my story.

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Melissa

Mom to "Baby"

Lost at 19 weeks 2 days, August 4th, 2010

Fort Collins, Colorado

WARNING: This is the TRUE story of my pregnancy journey and the grief and loss that ensued. This is not for the faint of heart.

I lost my first pregnancy on my mother's birthday, at 6 weeks.

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Tiffany

Mom to Linus Michel

October 15th, 2010

American living in Germany

My name is Tiffany. I am an American living in Germany, have two sons, and have just had my 5th angel baby.  Previous pregnancies have all ended around the 8 week mark, except for one previously that ended at 14 weeks as a missed miscarriage. My husband and I have gotten through so much in the past 5 years, that it doesn't even seem real at some points.  I would like to share my story with my most recent loss, my angel Linus Michel.

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Erin

Early Miscarriage at 5 weeks, 5 days

May 2010

Missed Miscarriage at 12 weeks, 4 days

November 2010

Aurora, CO
 

On May 1st, 2010 my husband (Erik) and I found out we were expecting for the second time. Immediately, we told our 2 year old he was going to be a big brother. He knew Mommy had a baby in her tummy. The pregnancy was very different than my first. I didn't have morning sickness right away and I felt like I was going to have my period at any moment. I wasn't concerned because I had heard this was a symptom many women feel early in their pregnancies. One night, after we had put our son to bed, Erik and I cuddled up to watch 'The Time Traveler's Wife'. I'd never seen it before and didn't know what to expect. I went to bed that night very emotional. Being newly pregnant, the multiple miscarriages she'd had filled me with worry. I had a sick feeling in my stomach all night.

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Kate

Mom to Shannon Elizabeth January 16th - January 19th, 2007

and Peanut Shelbe - EDD April 10th, 2008

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

In the summer of 2006, I hadn't been feeling good a lot. A pregnancy test revealed my first pregnancy was starting! We went for an ultrasound in the fall. We were so excited. By this time we could already feel the baby kicking. I just wanted to know what I was having so I could start buying outfits, toys, and all that good stuff. We went to have the ultrasound that morning without a care in the world. The tech started doing the ultrasound. She was taking a long time, like she was having trouble. She said she couldn't find her stomach and I might have to go to a different hospital. I didn't care; I just wanted to know what it was! The baby had its legs crossed and she couldn't tell. She finished up and told me to go back downstairs to my OB's office. My doctor came in the room and was asking if I could get to a downtown hospital right now. Then he asked Steve and me if anyone had mentioned anything about a hernia. We told him no, but he didn't reply, just told us to get down to the other hospital and he would call ahead. On the twenty minute ride down to the hospital, I wasn't scared, just disappointed that I still didn't know what I was having. Steve, I think, seemed uneasy.

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Katie

Mama to a 7 Week Miracle

Lost July 20th, 2009

Nashville, TN

On the morning of July 9, 2009 I took a pregnancy test. I didn't really think I was pregnant, but I was late, so I figured it couldn't hurt to be sure. Imagine my shock when it was positive! I ran in to tell my husband...we were thrilled and terrified. I took 5 more tests just to be sure!

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Jannie

Mom to Ashley Jane, June 1998

Janna Lashe, July 2000

and Colin Matthew, died May 30th, 2007, born June 2007

Pelham, AL

I had no idea that I was pregnant until I had miscarried. 

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Britany

Mom to 2 Angels

March 2010 and November 14th, 2010

Houston, TX

My husband and I have been trying since January 2010 to add a second child to our family.

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Lavonne

Mommy to Two Angels

November 21st, 2008

and May 1st, 2009

My husband and I got married in June of 2008, in July of 2008 I was referred to a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) because after a year off birth control I had only had two cycles. I was diagnosed with PCOS and was told I do not ovulate on my own. I was put on Clomid. I took it for two months, never having more than one follicle but at least that one was big enough I could take the trigger shot to ovulate. Both cycles failed. My third cycle on clomid when I went in for my follicle check my follicle was not big enough. They had me come in a few days later, and it still was too small for the trigger shot. So I decided to take a small break for a month or two. About three weeks after my follicle check I took a test one morning because I hadn't been feeling well and sure enough I was pregnant. We were over joyed and told everyone right away. 

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Nichole

Mom to Riley, August 12th, 2010

and Taylor, October 29th, 2010

Manistique, Michigan

People expect parents to quickly resolve the grief of a miscarriage. It’s as if since they didn’t know the child’s name, or it had not yet been named, or the pregnancy didn’t yet "show," our loss is somehow not as devastating. People often remark to us, "At least you didn’t know him/her," "You can always have another one," or "Probably it would have had a defect."

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Amy

Mom to Baby Fletcher, Lost August 2008

and Baby Fletcher, Lost October 2009

Bloomington, Indiana

My first loss occurred in 2008. I had recently lost my father to cancer and went through a terrible divorce. In the midst of my grief I met the most wonderful man that became my rock and shoulder to cry on. In the summer of 2008, (and after only a few months together) we learned we were pregnant.

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Brittany

Mom to Gabriella Ann

Miscarried at 9 weeks on December 25th, 2008

Maysville, Kentucky

I found out I was pregnant when my boyfriend (now husband) came home from work and with him he had brought a pregnancy test. He said he just had a feeling and asked me to take it, so i did.  Sure enough 3 minutes later there where 2 little pink lines, I was ecstatic. When I showed him he was excited also. 

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Sarah

Mom to Aaron or Erinn November Santoro

Miscarried at 6 weeks, 3 days on November 3rd, 2010

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

This poem letter is dedicated to Aaron/Erinn November Santoro... our first child, son or daughter, for whom we must wait til we enter the Gates of Heaven to meet for the first time. Aaron/Erinn was the name God gave me after the ultrasound results, since we don't know if its a boy or girl there are two versions. November for the middle name is so we always remember the month. Aaron/Erinn died at 6 weeks and 3 days old.

I wrote this on Friday, November 19th, 2010 the night of the day we got the call with the news opposite of what we had been praying and believing for.

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Miranda

Miscarriage at 9 weeks on February 18th, 2006

Miscarriage at 6 weeks on September 12th, 2009

Kristopher Noble, Stillborn August 1st, 2010

Columbia, Tennessee

My husband and I had only been married four months when I found myself taking three pregnancy tests, unbelieving the little positive signs I kept seeing. Our plan had always been to wait about five years before we started a family, so this twist in our path was a complete surprise.

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Katie

Mom to "Sprout"

Lost on September 22nd, 1993

Columbus, Ohio

I was 18 years old in summer of 1993, soon to be heading away to college on a scholarship. I had broken up with my long-time boyfriend that spring and began dating someone new and fun, a summer fling expected to run its course by autumn.

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Angela

Miscarried on January 16th, 2005 at 11 weeks after infertility due to PCOS

West Jefferson, North Carolina

My husband and I were high school sweethearts and were married in July 2000.  After a year of marriage we decided to go off birth control and try for a baby.  We were not discouraged when it did not happen immediately.  We were busy with our careers and enjoying life as husband and wife.  

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AmyLynn

Two Miscarriages 
Baby 1- Ectopic Miscarriage at 10 weeks, Death March 16th, 2010
Baby 2- Ectopic Miscarriage at 10 weeks, Death June 9th, 2010

Barrie, Ontario, Canada

My name is AmyLynn.  I lost my first baby due to an ectopic pregnancy.  I was given a needle that would force by body to miscarry the baby. We had been trying to get pregnant for 3 years, with nothing, then all of a sudden I was in the hospital and it all happened so fast. 

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Jennifer

Mom to Jordan

November 10th, 2005

Oregon

It is November and the rain has come again. My stomach has begun to bloat with a much-desired second child. The boxes of maternity clothes I wore while expecting my first have been dragged out of the dusty stacks in the garage. I’ve been feeling fairly well. Not as nauseated as with my first, when after every dinner I found myself in the bathroom. I’m proud to be starting to show. I love this part, where it becomes obvious that there’s a baby growing within me. I am a creature of comfort, and have been wearing a new pair of grey athletic pants with double pink stripes up the pant legs. When I go out, I look the part of “put-together-stay-at-home-mom,” but once at home I am quick to shed these classy garments, and cozy back into my comfy pants.

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Megan

Mom to "Our Valentine Baby"

February 14, 2009

Aurora, CO

This is the first time actually writing my story out...Derrek and I were in the worst possible time in our lives, we had been married a year and a half. We were still trying to adjust to marriage and each struggling with growing up. Derrek had just re-enlisted and we were about to be moving. He was going to be going to Maryland for school, while I went home for those three months, then we would report to our next duty station.

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