Gretchen

Mom to "Star" Baby

Lost on Mother's Day, May 9th, 2010

Folsom, California

I became an expectant mother on March 13th, 2010.  It was the happiest and most thrilling day of my life.  I lost my baby on Mother's Day, May 9th, 2010.  It was the saddest and most painful day of my life.

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Kai

Mom to Nadia

Passed away at 36 weeks in utero

Born February 18th, 2010

Mountain View, California

After several years of fertility treatments, we were overjoyed (and truthfully a bit anxious) to find out that we were going to have twins. Twins…I couldn’t believe it… of all the emotions that I felt, joy is the one I still hold on to. We had lost a child to an early miscarriage more than a year earlier, so we decided to keep our news to ourselves until after my first trimester. At 13 weeks, we couldn’t believe it- we had made it through the first trimester and everyone was doing well.

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Laeci

Mom to Baby Shay

Miscarried at 8 weeks

Redding, California

A week before Christmas, I was on the internet looking at baby names. My husband asked suspiciously, “You’re not adopting any more pets, are you?” “No,” I replied, “I think I’m pregnant.” He laughed. I was on the pill and hadn’t missed a period or experienced any signs of pregnancy, so it certainly didn’t seem likely. Despite never being pregnant before, I insisted that I ‘felt’ pregnant. Three days later I took a test and saw a positive.

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Jennifer

Mom to 

Tierney Faith Ibarra 

Stillborn January 21st, 2011

and Eden Hope Ibarra 

February 4th, 2011, born alive at 5:25 a.m., passed away at 7:00 a.m.

San Francisco, California

Dear Friends and Family and fellow survivors, 

It is with unimaginable sadness I share the loss of both of our little girls,Tierney Faith Ibarra and Eden Hope Ibarra. I had a very uneventful five months of pregnancy until January 14th. I noticed a change with my discharge and a bit of blood and went to get "checked out". Within an hour our lives were flipped upside down when they told us that  I was dilated and they could see membrane. I had no signs of labor and was in complete shock. 

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Kirsten

Mom to Boe

April 22nd, 2010

Huntington Beach, California

229 days.  That is how long I carried my precious baby boys.  My husband and I found out 14 weeks into our 2nd pregnancy that I was carrying spontaneous triplet boys.  It was a set of identical twins and a singleton.  A,B and C; then, once we found out all 3 were boys, Adler, Boe and Cameron.  My pregnancy was a pretty easy one, all things considered.  I had weekly doctor's visits and always got good reports.  Boe was always a bit smaller, but the doctor said he was still within normal range, and it is to be expected that there will be a smaller one in a multiple pregnancy.

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Olivia

Ectopic Pregnancy November 2007

Miscarriage March 2009

Early Miscarriage December 2010

Manteca, California

I am the face of Ectopic Pregnancy and Miscarriage BUT now I'm also the face of Early Miscarriage. 

Dec. 12.2010 I decided to take a pregnancy test to ease my thoughts on me being late. I was only a week late but with the medicine the doctors gave me for my type 2 diabetes,I was having my period every month. So I used a test that came with my ovulation kit. I waited for 15 minutes before I actually looked at it and it was a light positive. So I took another one again an light positive.So I emailed my friend a picture of the test and asked "does this mean I'm pregnant?" She sent me a email with a big smiley face and said YUP. 

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Amy

Mom to Taylor

Lost to Miscarriage at 13 weeks

January 10th, 2011

Orange County, CA
 

My husband and I had a fairytale wedding.  Our fairytale continued when we were surprised with a pregnancy within a few months of our wedding.  Our baby never made it to our arms, but her memory will be with us forever.  Mommy & Daddy love you, Taylor. 

Amy blogs at http://thetearinamyseye.blogspot.com/

You can contact Amy at thatgirlengineer@gmail.com

Tara
Mom to Nicholas John

September 28, 2009 to October 3, 2009

Oakhurst, California

My husband and I found out we were expecting our fourth child in February of 2010. I was very scared about having another child as my hands were pretty full with our other children. Bradley was 7, Emily was 5 & Wesley was 2. I was excited to be giving my other children a new sibling and I was even more excited that my oldest two would know a little more about what was happening to my body.I knew they would be super excited to welcome a new baby to our home! I couldn't wait and told everyone I knew as soon as I took the test!

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Kaila

Mom to Hayden James

January 8th, 2011

Clovis, California

On January 7th, 2011, I learned that I will experience the worst incident anyone could possibly imagine: the loss of their child. I don't even know what to say about the whole thing except for how it's not fair. Why does everyone else get to go home with their babies and mine lies asleep forever?

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Deb

Mom to Angel Baby T.

October 7th, 2010

San Francisco, California

In early 2010, my husband Michael and I were still on the fence about whether we wanted a second child or not. Our daughter Coral is a source of joy, but she’s also an energetic, opinionated handful. Could we deal with a second child and our time-consuming jobs? That summer, something just clicked and we decided that just as with our first pregnancy, we wouldn’t actively try, but would welcome a second pregnancy if it happened. In my head, I was thinking that December would be a nice time to try. That would give me six months to get things in order before embarking on this new journey.

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Sheryl

Mom to Mackenzie Violet Miller

August 27th, 2010 - August 28th, 2010

Rancho Cucamonga, California

Starting in December 2009, my husband and I started on the journey of using fertility shots to start our family. I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome when I was 15-years-old, and I knew it would take some challenges to get pregnant. We did the fertility treatments for three months. In February 2010 I was on my third round of fertility treatments and the doctor’s were considering the treatments as they were taking longer than a month for my ovaries to mature. However, they decided to up the dosage I was getting and I had three mature eggs. 

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Rachel

Mom to Little Angel, Lost August 19th, 2009

Green River, Wyoming

In April of 2009 my husband and I made the decision to try for a second baby. We had always planned on having our children close together and it just seemed like the right time for us.

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Jenette

Mom to Anthony

Born March 9th, 2008

Died March 15th, 2008

Murrieta, California

My name is Jenette and I had severe Pre-e with elevated liver enzymes. Like many of you I didn't know I had symptoms until after I knew what Pre-e was. I remember 2-3 weeks before going to the hospital saying there was glitter in the sky at school. It literally looked like someone dumped glitter from the 2nd level. I'll try giving you the short story.

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Tara

Mom to Allison Hannah

Stillborn on October 29th, 2006 at 33 weeks 3 days

San Diego, California

In March of 2006, my husband and I got pregnant with our first child just a few months after getting married.  We were very excited.  At the 20-week ultrasound, we found out we were having a girl.  I was a tomboy growing up and hated girly things such as dresses.  I knew that I wanted to raise my daughter as an athletic princess.  She could play sports and be a ballerina.  My little soccer girl would be tough and graceful.  She could wear cleats and be comfortable in dresses.  She would be like me, and at the same time, not like me.  This was my dream for her.  

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Victoria

Mom to Gracie Snow-Schoepflin, Born still on Thursday, July 19th, 2001 

Joseph Daniel Schoepflin, Born still on Monday, August 5th, 2002

Sacramento, California

 

I am the mother of two beautiful stillborn babies, My daughter Gracie and my son Joseph. This is our story.

 

I found out that I was pregnant for the first time at 19 yrs old. . I had a great guy and I was halfway through college. Life was good. Not exactly my ideal plan, but it was God had in store for me. My pregnancy was uneventful. I had the usual morning sickness, although I seemed to have it morning, noon and night, I got crazy cravings, and gained 12 pounds. I can remember the day we found out we were having a little girl. We beamed with elation, and probabley wiped out the hospital's entire stock of "its a girl" balloons. We took them to our moms at work, they were so great. (As parents I am sure that they wished we were older, and established, not sophomores in college working full time jobs. But we had been together since freshman year in high school and meant the world to each other. This baby was in our future plans, she was just arriving earlier than scheduled.) 

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LaRene

Mom to Christopher Allen

Born Still on April 28, 2001

My name is LaRene, from Bellflower, CA and I am a mother of a stillborn child. My son, Christopher, was in 2001, at 27 weeks. I remember when I first found out that I was pregnant with him, I was so elated. I had already had one child and was ready for another. As I watched my body change, I embraced my pregnancy more and more each day. I talked to Christopher as if he was already in my arms, began picking out baby clothes and deciding what to name him. But around my 20th week, something began to go wrong. He felt different, didn't move as much, and in my heart I think I knew something was wrong, but I shook it off. I remember walking to the laundry mat, which wasn't too far from my house and while there needed to go to the restroom. Not wanting to use the public bathrooms, I walked home while the clothes were washing. In the bathroom, I noticed I was spotting and called my mother immediately. Luckily for me she only lived down the street and was able to take me to the hospital quickly. I was relieved to find out that the baby was okay and that I needed to rest and call my doctor the following day. When I saw the doctor, he said everything was fine but wanted me to rest for a week before going back to work. I had no idea that I would find myself in the hospital again a few weeks later.

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Carolee

Mom to Elliot Alexander

August 13th, 2010

Woodland, California

I always thought getting pregnant would be easy, and I was so excited when my husband and I decided to try to start our family in December 2008.  After six months with no success, I made an appointment with my doctor because I knew something was off.  The doctor prescribed Clomid for me in late October 2009.  I was really discouraged after we didn't have success with my first Clomid cycle.  In late November, I started my second Clomid cycle.  On December 20, 2009, I woke up excited that I hadn't started my period.  I took a pregnancy test and waited, expecting a negative result.  I was shocked when the second line appeared!  I woke my husband up and we were both so happy, although I was also absolutely terrified! 

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Emily

Mom to 

"Baby Bean," Born February 24th, 2010, Due September 4th, 2010

and Jakob Bean, Born August 17th, 2010, Due February 24th, 2011

LaVerne, California

My story is two, separate stories. I am a 30 year old woman, and after trying for nearly 2 years to become pregnant, on January 4th, 2010, to my surprise received a late Christmas present. I was finally expecting! Praise the Lord! I was ecstatic! I couldn’t believe it!

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Jillian

Mom to Sterling

September 10th, 2010

San Diego, California

At 23 years old you're still at the stage of life of it will never happen to me.  I'm not going to lie up until last month I still lived with that frame of mind in regards to anything bad ever happening.  My husband and I already have two beautiful little girls, close in age, who both have started asking us recently for a baby brother or another sister.  This summer we decided we were finally ready to start trying for another.  With my first two pregnancies I got pregnant fairly quickly, so expected this time would be no different.   Of course as soon as we decided to try my cycles started getting wacky so when mid August rolled around and I started having light spotting I thought nothing of it; just chalked it up to another wacky cycle.  

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Ally

Mom to Collin Michael

Born and Died August 9th, 2008

Little Angel, Miscarried December 2008

Little Angel, Miscarried July 2009

San Diego, California

In my mind, my life's plan was always to get married by 22, finish college, and start a family by 26 years old. Somehow, life had other plans for me. I learned I was pregnant in Feburary 2008, despite my absolute certainty that I wasn't pregnant. My then fiance (now my husband) and I were in the process of moving and the whole process was stressing me out. Plus I had already taken 2 tests and they had come out negative. Little did I know that I read both tests wrong. When my fiance made me take another test, he chose one that had the + sign instead of the two positive lines. As soon as I took the test, it lit up +. We were overcome with shock, happiness, and confusion. How did this happen? What were we going to do now? It wasn't until we were confirmed pregnant by our doctor that we told my fiance's parents and family. They were overjoyed. When I told my parents when I hit the 12 week mark, they were less enthused, but it didn't matter. At 16 weeks pregnant, my fiance and I got married. When we went in for our 20 week scan, we found out we were having the first boy in the family. We were so excited. My pregnancy was fantastic and uneventful. Other than the typical achy feet and being more and more uncomfortable as I got bigger, I loved being pregnant.

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