Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope

Samantha

Mom to Zoie Madisyn Hebert

Born Sleeping November 30th, 2010 at 39 weeks

Plattsburg, New York

 I went into my 39 week doctors appointment Tuesday morning and it was just like every other routine appointment. He checked my cervix and I was 2cm, then he went to listen to her heartbeat and he couldn't find it. He took me in to check on the ultrasound and he still couldn't find it. I was sent to an imaging center to check on a better machine.... still nothing! This was the worse news ever.

 

I was having contractions at the imaging center and when I got home they were every 2-3 minutes and very intense. I went to L&D and when they checked my cervix I was 4cm. I got an epidural and about an hour later I was up to 8cm. The doctor came in and broke my water and about 40 minutes later it was time to push. I pushed for half an hour and Zoie Madisyn was born at 5:53pm on November 30th 2010. Unfortunately, she was gone. She weighed 8lbs 12oz and was 20 1/2 inches long. We were able to keep her in the room for as long as we wanted and we were able to hold her and take pictures. She stayed with us until 11:30pm. 

 

We went to the funeral home the day after I left the hospital to get her set up to be cremated. They called us to come pick up her ashes on December 8th, Zoie's due date!

 

This is definitely the hardest thing I have ever dealt with. I never would have thought in a million years that I would be mourning the death of my child, especially at 22 years old. I miss my baby girl so much. I think about her every second of every day, she was so beautiful! Every time I close my eyes I see her face! I will never be completely healed from this but I need to try and stay strong for my 3 1/2 year old son. We explained to him what happened but I don't think he completely understands what is happening. We just have to take things one day at a time!

 

You can contact Samantha at aidens_mom419@yahoo.com