Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope

Mirenda

Mom to Baby Miscarried June 12th, 2009

and Jada Sophia

Stillborn July 21st, 2010

Hillsboro, Ohio

Me and my Husband have been married for 8 years and we had been trying to have a child for 9 years. After a year of trying on our own I knew something was wrong so I went to my OBGYN and was told I was still young and that it will happen. I was 21 at the time. So I figured it was all in my head and for years I never went back to a doctor. 

Then after about 4 years later  I found another doctor and made appointment in December 2007 and found out I had low progesterone also had an HSG and that was clear. My husband was checked out and he was fine. Everything was normal, I just had to be on medicine for my low progesterone levels. So I started taking Clomid in January 2008.  

It took 4 rounds of clomid then we got pregnant the first time but we lost the baby at 5 weeks on June 12 2009. It was so devastating when this happened-- wanting something for so long then it gets taken away so soon. 

After the miscarriage we starting trying again and got pregnant in late February. It was a great pregnancy the only problem I had out of it was I got gestational diabetes. But with a diet and medicine it was under control. We went in for the first ultrasound when I was 9 weeks on April 29 2010 and saw the little pea everything was perfect and she was developing great.  I remember the first time I had felt my daughter kicking it was the most awesome experience I have ever felt. I would lay down in bed and me and my husband would talk to her and play music for her to listen to. It was like a dream only if I knew it was soon to be a nightmare. 

Then we went in for our second ultrasound on July 19 2010. We really got to see our baby. It was me my husband and my mother there. We found out we were having a little girl. It truly was the greatest day of our lives- our first child and my mothers first grand-baby. Everything on the ultrasound looked great she was so healthy there was no problems at all. After we left the ultrasound we stopped at my fathers to show her off then stopped to my in laws to show off the ultra sound to them. And we called everyone we knew to share the great news. 

 The next day July 20 2010 I was having some contractions that started at 4pm. I figured it was nothing and brushed it off. Then they started get stronger and closer together. I remember at 4am on July 21 2010 I called my doctor, the pain was so bad I had to get it checked out. So the nurse told me to come to the hospital to get checked out. By the time we got there I had started bleeding heavily. We waited in the room for a while before the doctor came in to give me an ultrasound. I remember seeing my baby alive for the last time. The doctor had looked at me and said her placenta was ripping away from her. There was basically nothing we could have done to save her. 

I didn't even have time to be put on any pain medicine. I felt her kicking the whole time till my water broke and soon after at 11:11 on July 21, 2010, I delivered a baby girl.  I was only 21 weeks. The doctors said I had a placental abruption with no reason for it to happen. They called it a freak accident and said if  this happened a few more weeks later she would have made it cause her lungs would have been more developed. All I ever wanted was a child with me and my husband. It comes so easy for many women but I have struggled with my infertility for years I am 28 now and still trying for another baby.