Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope

Melinda

Mom to Jordan Marie Rouff

Stillborn May 15th, 2006

I lost my baby girl on May 15th, 2006. I was 39 weeks pregnant, 1 week to go...nearly a perfect pregnancy (except for the morning sickness).

I went in on Mother's Day in 2006 to have them check on the swelling of my feet, hopeful, they would just keep me since I was already dilated to a 3. The nurses went to check the heartbeat and couldn't find it. They did a sonogram and my worst nightmare was confirmed. My little girl had passed away. 

My life changed forever on this day. Went into the hospital thinking I would have a baby, came out planning a
funeral.  Still to this day, I can't believe that happened, but the pain I feel in my heart is proof. It still hurts just as bad today as it did then. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of her. 

Although, we never got to see her eyes open or hear her little coos, we spent 9 months of pregnancy with her feeling every little kick, every little squirm, and had lots of dreams of all of the things we do together once she was here.  

I love and miss you baby girl!