Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope

 

Jeda

Mom to Kayla Evelyn

Born on December 20, 2006  

Sydney NSW Australia

Our daughter Kayla Evelyn was born sleeping on the 20th December 2006 at 41 weeks. My whole pregnancy was your normal everyday pregnancy and I loved everyday of it. I loved watching my belly grow bigger and bigger and most of all I loved how my oldest daughter Liana would sing and rub my belly.

The day I lost my daughter I thought I would never be the same again, I didn't want to smile because I thought I would be letting her down if I did. How can I smile when my baby just died??!! The only reason I got out of bed was because Liana needed me but all I did was make her food and go lay back down. My daughter just didn't lose a sister she also lost her mummy for a while. 5 months after losing Kayla I fell pregnant again. Scared to death of stillbirth happening again I still don't know how I got through those 9 months but the day my Emalee Hope was born on the 25th Jan 2008 I smiled again. She was a gift from Kayla to help mummy heal. She is my hero and I can't wait for the day to tell her just how special she is. 
 
In 2009 I was a contestant in the Australian "The Biggest Loser Couples" and had my chance to talk about stillbirth and how it effected me and my family and also get awareness out there and to show everyone that it is ok to talk about it. I have gotten so many emails and messages through facebook from ladies telling me how much I helped open up about it. So now I devote my time to talk with people and let them that they are not alone and that it's ok to cry and talk and even laugh sometimes. 
 
Kayla Evelyn's story has been told around the whole world as the biggest loser is being played and she is touching the lives of so many.

Jeda blogs at www.kayla-evelyn.memory-of.com

Jeda can be reached, and found on facebook, 

at forever-shining-@hotmail.com