Shawna

Mommy to Austin Liam

January 2nd, 2008

Adams, New York

On April 28th, 2007, I found out I was pregnant for my firstborn son, Austin. I was 17 at the time and scared to death but I was happily going through with the pregnancy. I went to the doctor that my boyfriend's mom recommended because she had him with her last son...and I wish that I had gone with my first instincts about him because he turned out to be the last person who should have taken care of us. He was very opinionated even going as far as to tell me that I was too young to be having a baby. That may have been, but I believe that it was completely unprofessional to say that to me.

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Samantha

Mom to Zoie Madisyn Hebert

Born Sleeping November 30th, 2010 at 39 weeks

Plattsburg, New York

 I went into my 39 week doctors appointment Tuesday morning and it was just like every other routine appointment. He checked my cervix and I was 2cm, then he went to listen to her heartbeat and he couldn't find it. He took me in to check on the ultrasound and he still couldn't find it. I was sent to an imaging center to check on a better machine.... still nothing! This was the worse news ever.

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Emily

Missed Miscarriage at 12 weeks

December 2010

Albany, New York

My husband and I were thrilled to be expecting our 2nd child. We had a 6 week scan, which was routine at my OB and saw a strong heartbeat.  Things progressed...I had horrible morning sickness, but told myself it was all worth it.

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Susan

Mom to Matthew Kristopher

Stillborn on July 27th, 2002 at 38 weeks

East Northport, New York

Life is not without loss. Everyone experiences it in some form during their life. How do you move on from your darkest days, when time stands still but life goes on around you? How do you pick up the shattered pieces and move forward, to rebuild your life, rise above the pain, and perhaps come out stronger and more determined than before? How do you go on to do something positive and help others in a similar situation, while helping yourself to heal? There will be light at the end of your long dark tunnel. You will get there eventually, maybe without even realizing it, and maybe by constantly working your way out, one little step at a time. This is my story of loss, grief, healing, and passion found.

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Stacey

Mom to Dillan Jesse P. Leombruno

September 17th, 1999

12:20 a.m. - 1:52 p.m.

Clifton Park, New York

Dillan's Life.....

 

It's been a little over 11 years since my Son returned to Heaven. I decided to re-write his story....this time from a point farther down the road in my grief journey.

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Tara

Our Little Angel, Miscarried August 25th, 2010

Albany, New York

My husband and I have 2 daughters, ages 5 1/2 and 3 years old.  We were always surprised by their pregancies.  When we found out we were pregnant with our 3rd baby, we had so many emotions running through our minds. Exciement, anticipation, we were scared, we were sad, we were happy.  In the back of my mind I knew something was not quite right, even from the very beginning.  I had spotting at 4 weeks when I found out I was pregnant.  I had cramps and bleeding everyday.  I went to the dr., went to the specialists, and had a few ultrasounds.  I was told everything looked good.  My HCG numbers were doubling as they should.  I just could not shake the feeling that something was wrong.

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Kelley

1st loss- February 12th, 2009
2nd loss- October 13th, 2009
3rd loss- December 16th, 2009
Chemical Pregnancy- January 22nd, 2009

Long Island, New York 

In 1 year, I have suffered 3 miscarriages, I chemical pregnancy, 3 D&Cs, 2 cycles of IVF, 6 IUIs, an HSG and Lap procedure, OHSS, given hundreds of vials of blood, given myself hundreds, if not a thousand shots, been diagnosed with auto immune and thrombophilia issues, and have cried an infinite number of tears.  My journey to become a mother has changed me.  This is my story. 

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Amy

Mom to Solomon

Born and Died on March 8th, 2000

and Z, Miscarried October 23rd, 2000

Oceanside, New York

Solomon was the name I gave my son, it means “peace.”   Solomon I chose, by myself, as my husband could not deal with the loss.  In retrospect I couldn’t either.  But when we learned he in fact was a he, I did what I always do – I searched on the Internet to find a name suitable for the son I would never have.

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Kristen

Mom to Angel Baby

Miscarried September 13th, 2010 at 13 weeks

Rochester, NY

We lost our precious baby on September 13, 2010. I was exactly 13 weeks pregnant. It was a Monday. It was 2pm. There was no heartbeat.  Life will never be the same. I haven't yet been able to go more than an hour without crying, regardless of where I am; home, restaurant, church, doesn't matter. There's never a shortage of tears. There's never a shortage of sadness. I loved that baby, I love that baby. I would have easily and without question given my life so that my baby could live. If only I'd had the option.

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Jamie

1st Angel- December 3rd, 2008 (Our Pre-Wedding Surprise)

2nd Angel- May 20th, 2009 (Our Honeymoom Angel)

3rd  Angel- October 2009 (OOPS Angel)

4th Angel- November 3rd, 2009 (Our emotional roller coaster Angel)

5th Angel- December 3rd, 2009 (OOPS Again Angel)

6th Angel- April 6th, 2010 (Our vacation Angel/Happy 1yr Anniversary Angel)

7th Angel- July 4th, 2010 (Our 4th of July Angel)

Long Island, New York

Ever since I was a young girl, I can remember how much I couldn’t wait to have a child and be a “mommy”. I remember my mom telling me how I was such a good caregiver to my younger siblings. My mom always told me, “you’re going to be a great mother one day”. 

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Karen

Mom to Alexander James Struzik

April 17th, 2002

Waterloo, New York

It was amazing to see so many women and there are so many stories, but we all loved our babies. We had a baby boy, Alexander James, 04/17/2002 who we lost to stillbirth. 

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Adrianne

Mom to Poppy Seed

November 11th, 2009

Bellmore, New York

September 2009 we started to try to start a family. October 2^nd we were surprised to get our BFP.  Peter and I were elated. I was shocked that it happened so quickly. We went through the next two weeks on cloud nine.  I loved that we had a secret that no one knew about.  I loved that I had someone growing inside me.  All I ever wanted was to be pregnant.  I always saw myself as a mother, but I mostly wanted to experience the creation of life.

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Jennifer

Mom to Zachary and Madison

Born and Died November 13th, 2009

and Baby March, Miscarried July 25th, 2010

Levittown, NY

My husband and I got married in March 2003 and started trying right away to have a baby. We both wanted a few kids and were so excited I thought it would happen right away. After a year of no success I went to my dr and didn't get much help just got told I'm young (was 24 at the time) and to keep trying. 

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Miranda

Mom to Baby Bean

Miscarried on May 17, 2009

Lake Ronkonkoma, New York

My husband and I started trying to get pregnant the second we got married on October 31, 2008. We weren't putting much pressure on ourselves, just going about our lives and figuring eventually we would get pregnant.

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Lauren

Mom to Bean, miscarried at 6 weeks, August 7, 2010

Sprout, miscarried at 9 weeks, 6 days, September 3, 2010

Naples, New York
 

It is so hard to know where to begin with our story. Right now it just seems like a mash-up of the greatest happiness and the most painful sadness my husband and I have ever experienced.

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Jen

Mom to Catriana "Catti" Quinn

Born Still on January 30, 2007

Rochester, New York

January 29, 2007 at 2:03 PM: How do you say words that no mother should ever have to say? Catti died this morning. Our hearts are breaking. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

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Jennifer

Mom to BG 2 1/2

Miscarried at 6 weeks on September 15th, 2008

Rochester, NY

It’s taken me a while to write my story of loss.  Sometimes I feel as though my loss isn’t as painful as someone else’s or that because I have 3 healthy children I should be happy and forget what happened.  But, my heart hurts when I think about my baby that isn’t here, even though it was an early loss and I have 3 little ones here to love on.  I realized that losing a baby is difficult and painful, no matter how or when it occurs.  I share my story because I lost a baby and my world was changed because of it.

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Jessica

Mother of two angel babies

Riley, confirmed on 2/11/10 at 6 weeks (EDD 9/27/10), D&C 2/24/10

Peyton, confirmed on 8/19/10 at 10 weeks (EDD 3/15/11), D&C 8/27/10

Buffalo, NY

My first angel:

From the time I was a child I always knew I wanted to be a mother. I married my husband Nate a month before my 27^th birthday and a year and a half later, I knew I wanted to try to have a baby. He was skeptical as he is almost five years younger than me. I told him he would never feel ready. In November 2009 I realized I had skipped my period. I got a bunch of negatives on tests and discovered I had only skipped my period because of going off birth control. In January I skipped it again but this time got a BFP (big fat positive)! I was shocked, texted my husband a pic and then had to explain to him what two lines meant (haha). I got a blood test and sure enough it confirmed the results. We told family and soon after that at around 5 weeks we told our church members and friends. I put a “Preggo” spaghetti can up as my Facebook picture and announced it there too because I was too excited to keep this joy a secret!

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Stephanie

Mom to Aurora Rose

Born sleeping on April 21st, 2010 at 35 weeks

Binghampton, NY

Late August of 1998 I went on a mini vacation with my father and grandmother to the St. Lawrence River. It’s a place we’ve been going all of my life. Late one night my father woke us up and made us go outside to look at the sky. Together, we watched the sky, witnessing the Aurora Borealis together. It was then that I knew I wanted to name my daughter Aurora. I was going into my senior year of high school and wasn’t even dating anyone at the time, but I didn’t care what my future husband thought.

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Tracey

Mother of Sylvie

Born and lost on July 9, 2010

New York, NY

We had been trying for nearly a year when I saw that positive pregnancy test. I had spotting in the first trimester and we worried about having a miscarriage, but our little bean grew and grew. Since I  am a carrier of Fragile X and have a small chance of passing it down, we had a CVS done at 12 weeks. We found out to our delight that we were carrying a girl and that she was completely healthy. After that 3 month mark, we finally shared our happy news with our extended families, the rest of our friends, and our coworkers. My belly grew and we started planning for our little girl.

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